Work is calling....

Growing up, I wanted to be like my mother. She was a stay at home mom, raising four children. I like the idea of being home and being able to do all the things that my children want to do and need done for them. We never went to daycare, we had friends over after school, and had after school activities like figure skating. Even now I would consider staying home full time. But I am curious to see what my life would be like while working, if it would be more fulfilling or just too much stress.

The final call came in and I'm for sure going back to work next week. I always said I was going back but wasn't sure about when. Since I work with children and this is my career, the one that I'm going to school for, I would have gone back at some point. But was up in the air about going back when my year of maternity leave was over.

My husband suggested that I don't go back to work because to have quality childcare it is over $900.00 per month.  I could also pay less money for daycare but I want to know that the people taking care of my son are doing a good job, that they are taking care of him because they like children and not just 'easy' money and that he is going to have the chance to grow and learn and crawl all over and under toys, furniture and people. That he is going to have as many chances to grow as a whole child and not just put in front of a TV (not that I have a issue with TV, he watches Treehouse here at home). Anyway back on topic, after talking about it and seeing that it would cost us money not to go back to work (my work/union pays my MSP, benefits, vacation etc) so here I am, going back.

I go back on the 8th, four hours to ease into it. Then the following week I jump right in, working 6-6.5 hours a day which isn't bad because I will get off work early enough to still have a couple hours to play before bedtime. So I think I'm ok with it. In my mind, if I go back and don't like it and want to be back at home then I can quit. And then I will know that I don't want to work, instead of always wondering.

Disclaimer: I reserve the right to change my mind :)